happy birthday momma
- “What am I supposed to be doing right now?”
- “How can this be real?”
- “What could it have been?”
- “When will I know and understand?”
- “No, but really, what am I supposed to be doing right now?”
- “Do I call people? … That seems weird. Sure, let me call someone and get attention that is awkward for the people on BOTH ends of the phone.”
is usually my next thought when words just pop into my head like that
and this time was no exception.
Today marks fifty-three days since those words to Him were spoken, since she’s been gone, and since I’ve been wrapped up in her scent. Today is also her birthday, the first of many special days my family and I will experience without her. It has most certainly not been fun, especially during the process of writing this post, but it seems that grieving and writing go hand-in-hand … for me, at least. Grieving is a process that is unique to each individual that experiences it. I find that writing is one of the ONLY ways I get my emotions out in the open. It’s like free therapy. I hope you will join me on the days where I just need to share how He worked His good out of this situation, even before she died, so that I may heal and you may know Him better.
With love and sequins,
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me, you may have peace. In the world, you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, for I have overcome the world.”
“Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later.”
“I have made you. I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.”